Whale means LOVE.

the title says it all. up to date, i have lost more than 85lbs. thats about empat kampit beras. Approximately 152 slabs of butter.

it was never easy. but nothing says i should quit. not now.

not when everything is crashing down.

Fluffy Fat Rice

I was in the pantry today, doing my usual morning routine of preparing my Herbalife Vanilla Cuppucino shake when my colleague unwrapped a greasy, hot red sambal sotong, ayam goreng peha, telur mata, and the usual nasik lemak fixings of fluffy rice, kacang bilis and timun.

I swear, a little bit of me was judging him. jahatnya tosh, that couldve been you a few years back*

No kidding, as awful as it may sound, that used to be my everyday staple diet and i did it without even having the slightest thought of the damage being done.

that evil acik lomak could block my artery pulmonari left ventrical (ok, i made that up just to sound smart), diabetes, stroke or even death. Leave alone what it made my body look like. No wonder Ped gave me a hard time living my life, and who am i to blame? myself, me.

i havent had rice for one and a half years now, and that'll be my biggest fear if i do. what if i consume, just one time, and wont be able to turn back? what if it stays in my body, and that one tiny little rice creature decided to breed,and multiply, and hide in between my body cells and organs, just to make my life a living hell? haha okay too far, tosh. too far.

So thats that. i hereby declare that im scared of rice. yes, very scared of rice.

im not normal.

p/s: Ped came back after 12,000 years.

Results?

it has been a year and a half since January 2010. Yes. i have lost 35kgs in total.

Ped : Dulu Cun

Heya.
I was going through my friendster (after approx. 3 years) in search of a cousin of mine who had a "face job" done; perhaps injected some liquid into her cheeckbones.or sucked some baby fats from it; or did some paper-mache on it and so it dried but she forgot to take it off and painted MAC on it. but her face nampak super pelik la and u sumhow knew Yesha* did something to make her cute face:cuter.yup my cousin(s) engage themselves in many 'jobs' as they have all the 'extras' in the world (i think). or at least, they are blessed with many many good things in life from Yang Maha Esa.

Talking about body parts, as i was going through the friendster pictures, i came accross old pics of me and friends. Tak sure la masa DULU ke buruk, or SEKARANG yang lagi macam toot

and i had a short BBM conversation and the reply was:
Ped: Dulu Cun

habis tu sekarang ni rupa dinasour ke chepap oii??
and Ped assumed tosh saja nak carik masalah. but that wasnt it. tosh's point was, Ped mustve a good heart for ignoring tosh's flaws.whatever.

R.I.P facebook

Not in the mood yet to write. I've got loads of work to do. and I think I wana close my facebook account and get use to not having it. kalos says its all in the mind. a matter of adapting to the situation. Maybe I should apply that concept to EVERYTHING else in my life kan.

THE Promise Tosh Made to Dad on NY2010

Dad : So what's your new year's resolution, sayang?
Tosh : Hmm, to lose weight and get married *nada tegas penuh harapan*
Dad : Hahaha

Let us analyse the "hahaha" dad gave me:
1. He was so sure it was never gonna happen. Not this year, at least
2. I have spent a fortune on all those diet magics with HIS kachings $$$ and NEVER paid back as promised. Total loss: RM100,000,000,000.00
3. False hope la Tepot papa ni (*tepot is his panggilan manja for me)
4. My baby will die an old maid
5. Your comment pls?

MyPromise

Out of self concern, a promise was made to myself and my sisters on Sunday 10th January 2010 that I shall come up with a blog of myself battling over the never ending weight issue (as a start, at least). My aim is to write whatever I feel about me walking down the journey of losing the weight and hope to share this with the rest of the world. I shall first warn you that I'm NOT a good blogger so please do excuse my entries. Nonetheless, I shall promise and assure you that whatever is written in this blog comes sincerely from the heart.So here it is, my dearest sisters. Oh! to Tots, I purposely named this page TheOddOne as a tribute to you.